Chapter 84: Pillow Talk
“Talking to the songbird yesterday / Flew me to a past not far away
She’s a little pirate in my mind / Singing songs of love to pass the time
Gonna write a song so she can see / Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come / Never felt this love from anyone
She’s not anyone
A man can never dream these kinds of things / Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whispered in my ear the things I’d like / Then she flew away into the night
Gonna write a song so she can see / Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come / Never felt this love from anyone
She’s not anyone” – “Songbird” – Oasis
”Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head / You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread / I lose my way but still you seem to understand / Now and forever I will be your man.
Sometimes I just hold you / Too caught up in me to see / I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me / I'll try to show you each and every way I can / Now and forever I will be your man
Now I can rest my worries and always be sure / That I won't be alone anymore / If I'd only known you were there all the time / All this time
Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand / Now and forever I will be your man / Now and forever I will be your man” – “Now and Forever” – Richard Marx
“Give me a reason why I’m feeling so blue / Every time I close my eyes all I see is you
Give me a reason why I can’t feel my heart / Every time you leave my side I just fall apart
And when you’re fast asleep I wonder where you go / Can you tell me I wanna know
Because I miss you / And this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you / I think about you when you’re gone
I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
But give me a reason why I can’t concentrate / The world is turning upside down, spinning round and round
Now give me a reason / why I now understand the beauty and simplicity of everything surrounding me
You got a way of spreading magic everywhere / Anywhere I go, I know you’re always there
It sounds ridiculous but when you leave a room / There’s a part of me that just wants to follow you too
Because I miss you and this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you / I think about you when you’re gone
I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
It’s such a hard life and most of the time / I’m just surviving
That’s why I want you to know / In a world where sincerity has lost it’s meaning
You fill my world with so much hope
And I miss you / This is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you / I think about you when you’re gone
I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
You know I miss you and this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you and this is all I wanna do
I know it doesn’t sound too cool but maybe I’m in love with you
You know I miss you and this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
I just miss you
Yeah, it’s true I miss you baby and when you’re walking out the door I know / I miss you
You make me wanna ask for more / I just miss you” – “I Miss You” – Darren Hayes
“I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it’s alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I’m finding it hard to be your man” – “Hold On” – Savage Garden
Sydney woke in the middle of the night, probably to reassure herself that Vaughn was still ok.
She yawned and looked down at his form lying atop her. His breathing was steady, and he didn’t seem to be in any discomfort.
She closed her eyes again, tightening her grip on him. He moved slightly, mumbling and groaning quietly.
She opened her eyes again, concerned, but he settled again.
She was about to close her eyes again when she heard a low whisper say, “Syd?” She wouldn’t have heard it if she’d been sleeping.
“Yeah?” she asked.
He seemed startled that she’d actually heard him. He jerked slightly, letting out a painful moan, and Sydney gripped him even tighter.
“Easy honey…just try to relax…” she waited until he seemed to calm, “Are you ok?”
”Yeah…”
”What did you need?” she asked.
“I don’t know…”
She chuckled, “You didn’t think I was going to be awake did you?”
She could feel him smile, “No…why were you? Am I keeping you awake?”
”No honey, I just woke up for a second…good timing though it seems…”
He was silent again.
“Vaughn?”
”Hmm?”
”Did you need to talk about something?”
”Not really…I guess I just wanted to make sure you were still there…”
”Can’t you feel me?”
”Yeah, I can feel you…”
She smiled, thinking of a child who was trying to be brave, but checked back every few minutes to see that mommy was still there.
She didn’t press him to say anything else.
“I’m sorry I blew up at you before…”
”I’m sorry too…”
”I had no right to talk to you like that…you’re always here with me…I’m sorry…”
”No, Vaughn…I didn’t handle that well at all. You have to be able to get angry if that’s what you need to feel…I’m sorry, I just…misinterpreted…Will said I was stupid,” she said chuckling.
“You weren’t…I was…”
”No,” Sydney said firmly, “You have every right to feel however you want. I need to be able to handle that…if you feel angry…you need to express it. I just can’t take it personally…”
”I don’t want to take my anger out on you Syd,” he said burrowing his head into her chest and sniffling.
”Shh…Vaughn…don’t worry about it…you weren’t yelling at me…and you’re gonna get frustrated. I’m surprised it took this long actually, I just didn’t…I don’t think either one of us were prepared for it…but now, if it happens again, I won’t storm out in a huff, I’ll stay and we can talk about it, ok?”
”I’ll try to control myself…” he said smiling.
”No, you say what you need to…ok? Don’t let it bottle up…when you feel frustrated, tell me…k?”
”Yeah…” he sighed.
She smiled, “Was that all that was bothering you?”
”Pretty much…I’m still scared about tomorrow…”
”It’ll be ok…don’t worry about it…she’ll be good to you…”
”Mmm…”
They were silent for a few minutes.
Sydney asked, “You feel safe tonight?”
He was quiet, not really punching in, “Uh…yeah…” but then he stopped, lifting his head.
He couldn’t hold it there very long, it strained his back and other muscles, and he couldn’t support himself on one arm for very long, but he looked at her long enough to get her drift.
She smiled, touching his face, “Well?” she asked.
He nodded, but added, dropping his head, “I…I don’t think I can Sydney…I’m not…I…”
She silenced him with a finger to his lips, “That’s not what I meant…”
She wriggled beneath him, managing to squirm her way out of her pajama bottoms and underwear. She reached down and pulled his c*** out of the opening in his own pajamas. His head dropped back to her chest and his eyes closed. He let her position him at her folds and then she tilted her hips, grabbing him under his arms and pulling him upwards until he was buried inside her.
She stopped then, finding a spot for him that would be comfortable, but so he could still stay inside her.
He wanted nothing more than to start thrusting in her, but he was too tired and the previous events of the evening had taxed his energy to the point that he was just content to be able to be inside her.
She moved her legs to the back of his thighs, and pulled him closer, sending him deeper inside her, eliciting a moan of pleasure from him. He sighed contentedly.
She smiled, “Ok?” she asked.
He nodded his head in answer, not able to find the words.
“Just relax honey…go to sleep, ok?” she whispered softly into his ear.
He nodded again, drifting off. She smiled when she heard his slow, deep, sleep breathing, and then allowed herself to drift off too.
~ ~ ~ ~
She was in a state of semi-sleep, not awake, but not yet sleeping deeply when she heard him say her name.
Quietly again, he said, “Syd?”
She came out of her semi-sleep, thinking something might be wrong, “Vaughn? What is it honey? Are you ok?”
He nodded, and lifted his head, looking up at her.
She cupped his cheeks, pulling him inside her further.
He moaned, “Mmm…Syd…”
”Yeah?”
“I need to come…”
She smiled, “You do?”
He nodded again.
“Sure baby, go ahead…” she smiled sweetly and gripped him tightly, fluttering her muscles on his c***, which was fully engorged inside her. He had been hard before, but now he was rock hard.
She watched him while he came, loving the expressions that crossed his face when he found release. She coaxed him through, eliciting moans of pleasure and relief.
When he was done, she smiled at him, waiting for him to comment.
He looked up at her sheepishly, “Sorry…”
She shushed him, “Hey…don’t apologize…anytime, I told you that before…anytime honey…you don’t have to ask and you don’t need to explain…”
He smiled, still looking embarrassed; “Do you want to know why?”
”Why you came?”
He nodded.
”Sure…”
He dropped his head back down to her chest, tired of holding his head up, “I was dreaming about you…”
She smiled, running her hands through his hair, “You were?”
She felt him nod, “What were you dreaming?”
”We were walking on the beach…holding hands and fooling around in the water, splashing…”
”Yeah…”
”And then we were making love in the sand…”
She smiled, “That sounds nice…”
”It was…it was so real…it was like I could feel myself in you…but then I woke up and realized I was…”
She smiled, “So…it wasn’t just my tender charms?”
”Well…that too…but it was just like the dream became real…”
”I’m glad it was a nice dream Vaughn.”
”Me too…thanks…”
”You’re very welcome…”
”But you didn’t–“ he started.
“Shh…that was for you…don’t worry about me.”
”But Syd–“ he protested.
She silenced him again, “Michael…that was for you…”
He nodded, settling himself back down to go to sleep.
“Can I ask you something?” she asked.
“Sure.”
”What would you have done had I not been awake?” she said smiling coolly.
“I…I don’t know…”
”Would you have come?”
”No, I wouldn’t just do that…”
She smiled, “Well…you could have…ok? Or you wake me up…got it?”
”Yeah,” he said, and she could feel his smile.
“I hope you have more dreams like that one Vaughn…that was definitely something nice to wake up to…”
He chuckled, “I hope I do too…”
She tightened her grip on him and ran her other hand absently through his hair. Her legs stayed intertwined with his, locked in the lover’s embrace.
Ok, I must say...I don't know why...but I really like this scene. I mean it's sexual...but it's not sex...and I just thought it was like the sweetest thing after I wrote it...so...there's my author's note...
“Talking to the songbird yesterday / Flew me to a past not far away
She’s a little pirate in my mind / Singing songs of love to pass the time
Gonna write a song so she can see / Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come / Never felt this love from anyone
She’s not anyone
A man can never dream these kinds of things / Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whispered in my ear the things I’d like / Then she flew away into the night
Gonna write a song so she can see / Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come / Never felt this love from anyone
She’s not anyone” – “Songbird” – Oasis
”Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head / You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread / I lose my way but still you seem to understand / Now and forever I will be your man.
Sometimes I just hold you / Too caught up in me to see / I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me / I'll try to show you each and every way I can / Now and forever I will be your man
Now I can rest my worries and always be sure / That I won't be alone anymore / If I'd only known you were there all the time / All this time
Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand / Now and forever I will be your man / Now and forever I will be your man” – “Now and Forever” – Richard Marx
“Give me a reason why I’m feeling so blue / Every time I close my eyes all I see is you
Give me a reason why I can’t feel my heart / Every time you leave my side I just fall apart
And when you’re fast asleep I wonder where you go / Can you tell me I wanna know
Because I miss you / And this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you / I think about you when you’re gone
I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
But give me a reason why I can’t concentrate / The world is turning upside down, spinning round and round
Now give me a reason / why I now understand the beauty and simplicity of everything surrounding me
You got a way of spreading magic everywhere / Anywhere I go, I know you’re always there
It sounds ridiculous but when you leave a room / There’s a part of me that just wants to follow you too
Because I miss you and this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you / I think about you when you’re gone
I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
It’s such a hard life and most of the time / I’m just surviving
That’s why I want you to know / In a world where sincerity has lost it’s meaning
You fill my world with so much hope
And I miss you / This is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you / I think about you when you’re gone
I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
You know I miss you and this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you beautiful
These three words have said it all / You know I miss you and this is all I wanna do
I know it doesn’t sound too cool but maybe I’m in love with you
You know I miss you and this is all I wanna say / I guess I miss you nothing’s wrong / I don’t mean to carry on
I just miss you
Yeah, it’s true I miss you baby and when you’re walking out the door I know / I miss you
You make me wanna ask for more / I just miss you” – “I Miss You” – Darren Hayes
“I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it’s alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I’m finding it hard to be your man” – “Hold On” – Savage Garden
Sydney woke in the middle of the night, probably to reassure herself that Vaughn was still ok.
She yawned and looked down at his form lying atop her. His breathing was steady, and he didn’t seem to be in any discomfort.
She closed her eyes again, tightening her grip on him. He moved slightly, mumbling and groaning quietly.
She opened her eyes again, concerned, but he settled again.
She was about to close her eyes again when she heard a low whisper say, “Syd?” She wouldn’t have heard it if she’d been sleeping.
“Yeah?” she asked.
He seemed startled that she’d actually heard him. He jerked slightly, letting out a painful moan, and Sydney gripped him even tighter.
“Easy honey…just try to relax…” she waited until he seemed to calm, “Are you ok?”
”Yeah…”
”What did you need?” she asked.
“I don’t know…”
She chuckled, “You didn’t think I was going to be awake did you?”
She could feel him smile, “No…why were you? Am I keeping you awake?”
”No honey, I just woke up for a second…good timing though it seems…”
He was silent again.
“Vaughn?”
”Hmm?”
”Did you need to talk about something?”
”Not really…I guess I just wanted to make sure you were still there…”
”Can’t you feel me?”
”Yeah, I can feel you…”
She smiled, thinking of a child who was trying to be brave, but checked back every few minutes to see that mommy was still there.
She didn’t press him to say anything else.
“I’m sorry I blew up at you before…”
”I’m sorry too…”
”I had no right to talk to you like that…you’re always here with me…I’m sorry…”
”No, Vaughn…I didn’t handle that well at all. You have to be able to get angry if that’s what you need to feel…I’m sorry, I just…misinterpreted…Will said I was stupid,” she said chuckling.
“You weren’t…I was…”
”No,” Sydney said firmly, “You have every right to feel however you want. I need to be able to handle that…if you feel angry…you need to express it. I just can’t take it personally…”
”I don’t want to take my anger out on you Syd,” he said burrowing his head into her chest and sniffling.
”Shh…Vaughn…don’t worry about it…you weren’t yelling at me…and you’re gonna get frustrated. I’m surprised it took this long actually, I just didn’t…I don’t think either one of us were prepared for it…but now, if it happens again, I won’t storm out in a huff, I’ll stay and we can talk about it, ok?”
”I’ll try to control myself…” he said smiling.
”No, you say what you need to…ok? Don’t let it bottle up…when you feel frustrated, tell me…k?”
”Yeah…” he sighed.
She smiled, “Was that all that was bothering you?”
”Pretty much…I’m still scared about tomorrow…”
”It’ll be ok…don’t worry about it…she’ll be good to you…”
”Mmm…”
They were silent for a few minutes.
Sydney asked, “You feel safe tonight?”
He was quiet, not really punching in, “Uh…yeah…” but then he stopped, lifting his head.
He couldn’t hold it there very long, it strained his back and other muscles, and he couldn’t support himself on one arm for very long, but he looked at her long enough to get her drift.
She smiled, touching his face, “Well?” she asked.
He nodded, but added, dropping his head, “I…I don’t think I can Sydney…I’m not…I…”
She silenced him with a finger to his lips, “That’s not what I meant…”
She wriggled beneath him, managing to squirm her way out of her pajama bottoms and underwear. She reached down and pulled his c*** out of the opening in his own pajamas. His head dropped back to her chest and his eyes closed. He let her position him at her folds and then she tilted her hips, grabbing him under his arms and pulling him upwards until he was buried inside her.
She stopped then, finding a spot for him that would be comfortable, but so he could still stay inside her.
He wanted nothing more than to start thrusting in her, but he was too tired and the previous events of the evening had taxed his energy to the point that he was just content to be able to be inside her.
She moved her legs to the back of his thighs, and pulled him closer, sending him deeper inside her, eliciting a moan of pleasure from him. He sighed contentedly.
She smiled, “Ok?” she asked.
He nodded his head in answer, not able to find the words.
“Just relax honey…go to sleep, ok?” she whispered softly into his ear.
He nodded again, drifting off. She smiled when she heard his slow, deep, sleep breathing, and then allowed herself to drift off too.
~ ~ ~ ~
She was in a state of semi-sleep, not awake, but not yet sleeping deeply when she heard him say her name.
Quietly again, he said, “Syd?”
She came out of her semi-sleep, thinking something might be wrong, “Vaughn? What is it honey? Are you ok?”
He nodded, and lifted his head, looking up at her.
She cupped his cheeks, pulling him inside her further.
He moaned, “Mmm…Syd…”
”Yeah?”
“I need to come…”
She smiled, “You do?”
He nodded again.
“Sure baby, go ahead…” she smiled sweetly and gripped him tightly, fluttering her muscles on his c***, which was fully engorged inside her. He had been hard before, but now he was rock hard.
She watched him while he came, loving the expressions that crossed his face when he found release. She coaxed him through, eliciting moans of pleasure and relief.
When he was done, she smiled at him, waiting for him to comment.
He looked up at her sheepishly, “Sorry…”
She shushed him, “Hey…don’t apologize…anytime, I told you that before…anytime honey…you don’t have to ask and you don’t need to explain…”
He smiled, still looking embarrassed; “Do you want to know why?”
”Why you came?”
He nodded.
”Sure…”
He dropped his head back down to her chest, tired of holding his head up, “I was dreaming about you…”
She smiled, running her hands through his hair, “You were?”
She felt him nod, “What were you dreaming?”
”We were walking on the beach…holding hands and fooling around in the water, splashing…”
”Yeah…”
”And then we were making love in the sand…”
She smiled, “That sounds nice…”
”It was…it was so real…it was like I could feel myself in you…but then I woke up and realized I was…”
She smiled, “So…it wasn’t just my tender charms?”
”Well…that too…but it was just like the dream became real…”
”I’m glad it was a nice dream Vaughn.”
”Me too…thanks…”
”You’re very welcome…”
”But you didn’t–“ he started.
“Shh…that was for you…don’t worry about me.”
”But Syd–“ he protested.
She silenced him again, “Michael…that was for you…”
He nodded, settling himself back down to go to sleep.
“Can I ask you something?” she asked.
“Sure.”
”What would you have done had I not been awake?” she said smiling coolly.
“I…I don’t know…”
”Would you have come?”
”No, I wouldn’t just do that…”
She smiled, “Well…you could have…ok? Or you wake me up…got it?”
”Yeah,” he said, and she could feel his smile.
“I hope you have more dreams like that one Vaughn…that was definitely something nice to wake up to…”
He chuckled, “I hope I do too…”
She tightened her grip on him and ran her other hand absently through his hair. Her legs stayed intertwined with his, locked in the lover’s embrace.
Ok, I must say...I don't know why...but I really like this scene. I mean it's sexual...but it's not sex...and I just thought it was like the sweetest thing after I wrote it...so...there's my author's note...
