Sorry I haven't updated in a LONG time. I've been working, going to school...and AA doesn't work at all for me at work, and only sporadically at home.
Anyway, enough with the excuses, and on with the fic.
Part Eight: If I Could Turn the Page in Time
If I could turn the page
In time then I'd rearrange
Just a day or two
(Close my, close my, close my eyes)
A gentle bump and screech woke Sydney. She sat up, and glanced out the jet windows. Stretches of concrete swiftly passed by outside. She turned and noticed that Vaughn had awakened as well, bright green eyes alert and watching her.
"Are we in L.A.?" she asked him. He nodded. She groaned, threw herself back onto the cot, and covered her face with her hands. "I don't want to go home yet." Hearing no response, she moved her hands and looked at him. He was sitting up, staring down at her sadly.
"Neither do I." Syd rose again, and joined Vaughn on his own makeshift bed. They wrapped their arms around each other and embraced until the pilot's voice came over the intercom.
"We have arrived in sunny Los Angeles. This concludes your flight with CIA airlines. Thank you for flying the confidential skies. Please remember to return your seats and trays to an upright position and that to speak of this flight with anyone outside the agency is a violation of federal law. Have a good day."
Syd and Vaughn quickly got up and began tidying up the cabin. Fighting the motion of the taxiing jet and their burgeoning hangovers, they returned the pillows and blankets to the overhead compartments, restored the cots to their usual position as seats, and got most of the empty mini-bottles into a convenient wastebasket.
The plane came to a stop, and the two agents looked at each other. Vaughn tugged at his suit jacket, and Syd smoothed her hair, both of them attempting to look presentable. Syd grabbed Vaughn's hand.
"Are you ready to do this?" He nodded.
"Are you?" She nodded back at him, and squeezed his hand.
"Vaughn, I know this isn't going to be easy, and I'm not going to pretend that what we did was supposed to make it any easier. But remember, no matter what happens from now to the moment this ends, I love you." He smiled sadly at her.
"I love you too." They shared a brief kiss, then Syd let go of Vaughn's hand.
"Well, I guess we better get out of here."
They walked towards the front of the jet. The cockpit door was still closed, the pilot probably recording the flight in his log. Syd wanted to have a word with the him, but wanted much more not to stick around. She and Vaughn were expected back to give their debrief.
Vaughn twisted the mechanism on the jet's main door, and opened it out. The door was one of those that doubled as the steps, and he lowered it down to a waiting crewman. He thanked the worker, one of only a dozen that staffed this small airstrip the CIA used. He then stood up and motioned for Syd to precede him outside.
Sydney stepped out the hatch, squinting her eyes against the bright L.A. sunlight. Somewhere inside of her, she'd expected nighttime when they landed, as it surely was in Vienna. However, they had chased the daylight west, and no clouds concealed the sun here.
As she carefully descended the steps, she noticed a car about fifty yards away. She had little time to wonder who'd come to pick them up, as a cheerful voice greeted her.
"Hey Syd!" She grimaced as Weiss' voice boomed next to her. Normally, she would be tempted to giggle a little, reminded of the jokes she and Vaughn shared about their friend. But a headache started to blossom behind her eyes, and she wanted nothing more than to get in the car, out of the sun. Knowing that Weiss would understand her condition, she offered him no more than a curt "Hi Weiss" before hurrying to the car.
Vaughn, however, possessed no such luck. As his foot touched the tarmac, Weiss grabbed his arm, and held him there, letting Syd advance several feet in front of them. Vaughn also squinted in the blazing sunlight, and wished to be under cover as much as Syd.
"Hey Weiss, what the hell are you doing?" Weiss kept hold of his friend's arm, and began walking them slowly toward the car.
"Being very glad that it wasn't Lauren or Jack here to pick you up." His face showed seriousness and concern, but Vaughn was too busy shielding his eyes to notice.
"Lauren's back already? Damn, what'd you tell her about the mission? Why is it good you're here?" Weiss shook his head at Vaughn's apparent denseness, and wondered if there was a drop of alcohol left on the jet.
"Lauren got back this morning, and we told her that we had to send you two on a quick recon mission, but who you were sent to watch turned out to not be Covenant." He then stopped them, and forced Vaughn to look at him.
"Dude, you look and smell like you've had
way too much of the types of fun married men aren't supposed to have with women who aren't their wives. That would've gotten you in
big trouble with Lauren, buddy." At this, Vaughn's head cleared a little, and he noticed Weiss' expression.
"And Jack?"
"He probably would've just shot you. Several times for good measure. It doesn't look like you guys were being too smart." Vaughn hung his head, and gave his face a quick rub with his hand.
"You're right, but," before he could finish, Syd's voice rang out from the car.
"Come on you guys!" Weiss let Vaughn go, and they started walking again.
"It's cool, man. I understand, and I won't say anything. But before we go back to the office, I'm taking you guys home to clean up. You left some clothes at my place before you had to go back, and Syd can clean up at hers."
"Thanks, man."
"Yeah, thank me for all the sh*t I take for you. The both of you."
"Shut up."
The men reached the car, and Weiss opened a door for Vaughn. He resisted the temptation to shove the hungover idiot in so they could leave quicker. As it was, he would have to come up with a good reason why their arrival to the Rotunda was delayed. He didn't think that "Agents Vaughn and Bristow needed a shower and fresh clothes" would work, especially since they were supposed to take care of that in Vienna.
Evidently, they took care of more than that, thought Weiss, as he sat in the driver's seat of the black sedan and started it up. He had plenty of sympathy for Syd and Vaughn, but they chose the wrong time to manifest one of their few acts of irresponsibility.
Good God, it's like Nice all over again, where good ol' Weiss has to save their besotted asses.
And the enemies wouldn't be the only ones gunning for his dumbass friend. Vaughn had told Weiss about Jack's warning to him. If the elder Bristow wasn't going to put up with indiscretions involving his daughter, he sure as hell wasn't going to be happy when said indiscretions endangered an important objective
and Sydney’s life. Weiss wasn't sure whom Vaughn should be more afraid of if the actions of the lovelorn agents got out; the Covenant or Jack. Weiss wouldn't put money on the Covenant.
So to prevent all that, Weiss would drive these morons back to his house where they could "dispose of the evidence," so to speak. He listened to the two of them whisper small comforts to each other.
"Are you sure you can do this?"
"Yeah, yeah, I'll be okay."
"You know I'll be here for you."
"I know, but I can't openly rely on you."
"I know, we can work something out where we can talk if you need it."
"
Just talk." Weiss' voice cut across their soft conversation. The two agents' heads snapped up to stare at their driver. Weiss glanced in the rear view mirror to see Syd looking at him in surprise, Vaughn with slight annoyance. "I mean it you guys. There's too much at stake to have you two playing around." Syd glared at him.
"We
know." Weiss quirked an eyebrow at her.
"Oh yeah? Well, you didn't seem to know all that long ago." When neither of the offending duo replied, Weiss smirked and turned his full attention back to the road.
Minutes later, he pulled into his driveway. Without a word, everyone exited the car. Weiss immediately went to his front door. After unlocking it, he turned to see Sydney and Vaughn still standing by the car.
"I'll see you in a bit."
"Okay." The two looked as if they wanted to kiss, hug, or something, but wisely, they didn't. Weiss kept his approval to himself and opened the door. Vaughn followed him inside, but stopped in the living room, whereas Weiss continued into the kitchen.
"You know where everything's at." Vaughn didn't move.
"What are you doing?" Weiss pulled a nail out of a drawer, and headed back towards the front door. He pulled his cell phone out and waved it Vaughn.
"We have a flat tire. Or rather, we're going to have one." Vaughn gave him an indecipherable look, then turned and headed toward the bathroom. Weiss shrugged and went back outside.
He hadn't actually seen Sydney leave, and didn't seen any sign of her outside. For some reason, he'd actually expected to see her fretting about his yard. He smacked himself mentally; though she'd slipped, and probably with good cause, Syd wasn't like that. Of course she was where she was supposed to be - in her house, cleaning up.
He popped the lid on the trunk, and shuffled some items around to uncover the spare tire. He felt fortunate that the spare was a real tire, not a "donut," or he'd have to do a real tire change. He surveyed the tire, looking for the best way to damage it realistically. At the same time he pulled out his cell phone and quickly dialed a number.
"Yes?" The secretary answering the phone was supposed to say something that didn't give any clue to where the call connected to, in case someone dialed a wrong number. However, the secretary put such pomposity into the word that Weiss felt sure that if somebody with a brain dialed wrong, they'd figure something was up.
He thinks he's so uppity because he works with the Joint Task Force. I should tell Dixon he mishandled some paperwork so he gets shipped back to the main office to work with all the rest of the "run of the mill" secretaries. Instead of voicing his opinion of the conceited secretary, Weiss merely made his report.
"This is Agent Weiss. Can you please inform Director Dixon that I will be late in bringing Agents Vaughn and Bristow in to their debriefing? We have a flat tire on the car." The man on the other side of the conversation sighed as if Weiss' problem personally inconvenienced him.
"Would you like me to send another agent to pick you up?" Weiss grabbed the jack from the corner of the trunk and began clanging it loudly.
"Oh no, that's okay. I've got it under control. Look, I'll be there in a half hour. Please tell Dixon."
"Yes, sir." The secretary said
sir as if it was a curse word. Weiss hung up before the annoying man could say anything else. He felt aggravated enough about this situation, he didn't need some stuck-up secretary giving him trouble.
He looked at the nail he'd brought out. It looked like an oversized tack.
Hmm, I could place it in between the treads. Naw, that wouldn't look realistic enough. I could place it in a tread, but would it reach far enough to flatten the tire? Would it deflate all the way? Maybe I should use a tire on the car, the tread might be thinner. Weiss' thoughts continued to churn as he tried to figure out how to make the tire convincingly flat.
This might get dirty……
***
Vaughn exited the bathroom, wrapped in a towel, and feeling somewhat refreshed. Though the shower washed away the damning smells of drunkenness and fulfilled desire, it couldn’t wash away the feelings caused by those states.
His head felt heavy, as did his heart. He didn’t really want a drunken tryst in an airplane galley to be his goodbye to Sydney, and he highly doubted she did as well.
Why are you thinking of it as a goodbye? This thought followed him to Weiss’ bedroom, where a bulging backpack lay in the corner opposite the doorway. Silently thanking Weiss for never cleaning, he picked up the backpack, unzipped it, and pulled out underwear, socks, t-shirt, and a carefully folded suit. As he began to dress, his mind continued to process his burden.
Sydney never said that it was goodbye. In fact, she’d promised the complete opposite, to stay with him whenever she could. Yes, they would be separated physically, but only a short distance. The closeness of lovers would be denied them, but not the comfortable proximity of friends, or good coworkers. And they would always be wound tightly around each other in their hearts, entwined together in their souls.
However, Vaughn’s mood darkened as he recalled that he would have to maintain intimacy with Lauren. Where once the thought of his wife comforted and warmed him, he now felt nauseated and chilled. How could he look into those lying blue eyes and suppress the urge to blacken them? Would he be able to listen to her speak without wanting to gag her? Could he sleep next to her at night and not smother her with his pillow?
Memories of Sydney came to his mind. He remembered those long years ago, when she had been forced to smile at Sloane, day in and day out. In the halls of SD-6, in the briefing room, in his office, she had no choice but to speak civilly to him, pleasantly even, when she desired nothing more than to slit his throat and watch him bleed his life away on the floor.
I can do this, Vaughn told himself. However, another thought caught him before he could become too confident: Sydney didn’t have to sleep with her enemy.
Finishing his tie, and giving it a final yank, Vaughn banished his doubts and headed back to the living room. Just as he got there, Weiss entered the front door, his suit looking as if he’d been laying face down in the driveway. Vaughn frowned at him.
“What on earth happened to you?” Weiss shrugged and grinned.
“I changed a flat tire. Doesn’t it look like it?” Before Vaughn could respond, the front door opened again and Sydney came in, clean and revitalized.
“Hey you guys. Weiss, how’d you get so dirty? I thought the whole point was to clean up?” Vaughn answered for his friend.
“He changed a tire. How come you look so alive? I feel like sh*t.” Syd grinned at him.
“Maybe because you forgot to take some of your miracle cure yourself.” Vaughn groaned.
“Maybe you’re right.” Weiss cleared his throat, stopping the banter before it could take off.
“Maybe we should go now. Come on you guys.” Dutifully, Syd and Vaughn followed Weiss back out to the car.
The car ride to the Rotunda was wonderfully silent, in Weiss’ opinion. He still felt too annoyed to make idle conversation with his friends, and they didn’t talk out of consideration for his ire. However, as they pulled into the parking structure, the whispering started again. Weiss didn’t interrupt, allowing them their last minute comforts before being forced back into the harsh reality of separation and lies.
Entering the parking structure, Weiss deliberately found a space far from the elevator. He figured that Syd and Vaughn could use the extra walking to help compose themselves. As he threw the car’s gear shift into “Park,” Weiss looked up into the rear view mirror, this time to catch his passengers staring at each other, clasping their hands together. They leaned their heads together, foreheads touching.
"I love you."
"I love you." Weiss rolled his eyes.
"Come on, you two." The three agents disembarked from the car. Weiss shut his car door, and trigged the car's alarm with the remote. He looked over to Syd, and Vaughn standing together, and then looked around the parking garage. It just so happened that the pair were standing in a spot not swept by the security cameras.
Weiss hurried over to them before they could move and change that. "Hold on!"
They stared at him impatiently as he moved behind them. He grabbed Sydney by the shoulders, and moved her until she stood on his left side. Then he grabbed Vaughn, and moved his friend to his right.
"Okay, that's better, let's go."
The three of them strode through the parking structure, wearing lies, preparing to combat lies. Every so often, a sigh could be heard, or a pained intake of breath, but otherwise the walk was silent. All the way to the elevator, up to the main floor, through the security checkpoints, and into the Rotunda proper.
They stood there for brief seconds, viewing the everyday bustle of an intelligence office. Agents and analysts walked hurriedly around, many carrying documents or folders. All of them oblivious to being watched from the entrance, many of them accustomed to being observed for most of their working hours.
Then one figure did notice the silent watchers, and detached herself from the whirling throng. She was the last person any of them wished to greet first, and each of them readied their internal defenses as she gifted one of their group with a smile that was surely insincere.
"Michael!" The comely blonde with the big, blue, deceitful eyes threw herself into her husband's arms, while he quickly plastered on a fake smile. She embraced him, tightly, enthusiastically, and then looked over to Syd and Weiss, who quickly donned subdued smiles of their own. "How was the mission?" Vaughn frowned a little, and his eyes slid over to Sydney, whose face betrayed nothing, except for the slightest amount of alarm in her eyes.
"It was boring. Nothing happened." Lauren let go of Vaughn, only to grab his hand.
"You don't have to go into your debriefing for a few minutes. Come talk to me."
She quickly pulled him away from Syd and Weiss, leading him to the other side of the Rotunda.
Vaughn mentally groaned as his wife forced him to follow her. The disturbing feel of her hand grasping his scattered his memories of the last 24 hours, making them no more real than a pleasant dream. It seemed highly unlikely that he'd made love to Sydney, he was married to this woman in front of him. No matter how much he loved Sydney, or how much of a traitor his wife was, he was still committed to Lauren. For better or worse, though this was definitely worse. Much, much worse than he ever imagined.
When did his grief and love for Sydney dim enough to allow him to fall in love? Or did they? Surely, he was manipulated somehow into falling for Lauren. He remembered their early days together, when she seemed to know exactly what to say to him in any situation: whether he was balking at starting a relationship, caught by a memory, or consumed by his grief. Why did he listen to her? Why did he let this duplicitous b*tch lead him into her gilded trap?
He wished, for a moment, that he could go back in time and warn his younger self. That he could tell that tortured man that his true love had not died, that he could search for her, or wait for her to come back, and have his life restored to him. The life he was supposed to lead, living with Sydney, loving her, supporting her, protecting her.
But time travel was impossible, unless the Rambaldi artifact they stumbled on next happened to be a time machine. He'd worry about that if it ever happened. For now, he was stuck trading lies with the succubus that called herself his wife.
Vaughn's thoughts ended as Lauren parked him at his desk, and gave him a brief kiss on the cheek.
"Don't forget, we have the appointment with Dr. Barnett tomorrow morning. I cut my stay in Washington short so we could attend."
Vaughn found it very amusing that Lauren reminded him of the appointment, which he had set up with Barnett and Dixon in the hopes of manipulating Lauren through the sessions. This would be their second appointment, the first being just a day after he revealed the evidence of Lauren's true allegiance to Syd and Jack.
The first session had been an "obligatory" background session, with Vaughn and Lauren each having a turn to tell "their" story.
If only Barnett had known how hard it'd been for me not to say "and then I found the b*tch's wig and gun in her suitcase" at the end. Vaughn turned that derisive thought into one wondering how he could use tomorrow's session to his advantage.
"I won't forget. Do you have any more trips coming up?" Lauren's eyes slid down and to the side, signaling Vaughn that she may be preparing to tell a lie.
"Mum wants me to come to Richmond and spend a day with her. She's packing up some of Dad's things, and she doesn't want to do it alone." Vaughn nodded at her, but before he could reply, Weiss approached.
"Hey man, Dixon wants you in debrief, now." Vaughn glanced quickly to Weiss, hoping that his friend could read the expression of relief in his eyes. Then he looked back at Lauren, who gazed at him expectantly. Realizing what he had to do, Vaughn took his self-control in hand, then leaned over and kissed his wife as she kissed him earlier.
"I'll see you in a little while." He couldn't read her expression as he backed away from her. Not caring, he turned and followed Weiss.
~*~
A/N: My God, I've forgotten how long it's been since I've written this. Certainly out of date with the new season, eh? But I hope you still enjoy.
My one-parter partner to this update is
Alone in a Crowd.
Next up: Debrief, winding down to the end. Two parts left.